I soooo wish I am a pessimist. But I am just not. I am more of an optimist with a swish of being an “insensate” sometimes…
You see, I always thought that people change (they do!). And always hope that if they do, it should be for the better (well!!!). And as to friends, I try to keep things bright and sunny and try to keep things light even amidst seriousness of breaking trusts and faiths. And when they dwell on the negative and stay bitter, even after a certain amount of time, then I simply forget things. And then wait for time to heal and start like nothing bad happened only when they are ready (now this is tricky coz you will never know when they are…you will be rejected over and over but in time, you’ll get a hug and a kiss or get a smile back at the least).
Maybe I just don’t like a gloomy universe. Or perhaps, I am allergic to a non-positive aura. Thing is, sometimes, when a friend is not doing well, I have this thing that I make it a responsibility to keep them right on track. I put on my dress with a pocketful of pep talk potion to sprinkle; sometimes, a dash of you-are-digging-your-own-grave-powder; and sometimes still, a splash of “I am your mom and you are not getting a cookie if you will not improve” oil.
But I learned that friends, like any other individual, have a mind of there own and you can only do so much. I used to wonder, “Is it me? Am I not a good influence? Am I not inspiring enough?” You can only listen when they need an ear. And no matter how great an effort, support or whatchamacallit you give, you can’t expect them to do as you wish; Even if your intention is for their own good.
So while trying to be the verve of a person to lift someone up… I also try to stroll in the park and wait till they help themselves…
…whether I still care or no longer do.
FIRST STONE THROWN, NOT WELCOME J
But I learned that friends, like any other individual, have a mind of there own and you can only do so much. I used to wonder, “Is it me? Am I not a good influence? Am I not inspiring enough?” 